Thursday, March 31, 2011
Taking a Break
Dear Reader,
I am going on a hiatus. I need to refocus several things-- life, work, this blog, whatever.
This blog has not gone in the direction I wanted it to, and I am going to spend a great deal of time reworking it. I will probably move all of my old posts to my old blogger account and start anew. Thank you for your continued readership. In the future, I hope to be a better steward of this love for writing.
I don't know how long this will take, so until then, please check out these other fantastic bloggers:
Ladies:
Leslie Ludy (Set Apart Girl-- a great resources for purity)
Joy Eggerichs (Love and Respect NOW. Ask questions. Think and long for God. Laugh.)
Sherideth Smith (A Woman's Guide to Women: A Blog for Men -- but also for ladies)
Amanda Bast (Consider the dandelion.)
Gentlemen:
Stuff Christians Like
Ragamuffin Soul
Tyler Tarver
Tyler Stanton
Brian Allain
Monday, February 28, 2011
9 things I'd do if I had $1,000,000
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Here's a run down of the things I'd do if I had/ won a million dollars.
- I'd give more than 10% away to start. 10% to my church and some more to my beloved campus ministries at Kennesaw State.
- I'd pay off all my mom's, dad's, and my debts.
- Put some in the bank.
- I would quit my job, go back to school, and finish.
- Buy plane tickets to Kelowna, Dresden and New Zealand.
- After I finish school and go traveling the world, I'd hook up with a missionary organization and do that for the rest of my life. (I'm not saying I'm putting THE mission on hold. There's plenty of mission opportunity at home and the other place I want to go.)
- Work on completing my 30 before 30 list. I've determined that winning the lottery may be the only way to do it before I'm 30. Of course, God is bigger than the lottery or my piddly little plans. :-)
- Give money to my family and any of their ministries.
- If there is any money left, I'd put some more in the bank. I'll probably have to pay taxes on this imaginary money. I guess. I might give it away.
What would you do with a million dollars (or the equivalent in other world currency)?
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Sweet dreams?
My dreams have been anything from ridiculous to so real that I woke up feeling brokenhearted.
Thursday, February 3, 2011
A prayer request and some links
I've been really tired lately. It may not sound like a good excuse, but I haven't really had the energy (physically or mentally) to even consider a post. I think about you everyday and how I need to update this blog.
What's been going on? Just work. I don't know what's been going on with being tired. It's not just tired, but I can't concentrate very well, and I forget things. I lose my train of though with no warning. The other day, I called my cousin for something, and while the phone was ringing, I completely forgot why I was calling. Thankfully, she didn't answer. I still can't remember why I called her.
It worries me a little because it could be a variety of things both physical and mental. I would greatly appreciate some prayers. I don't have insurance, so I can't afford a doctor or the tests I may need. This all gives me a chance to forget about what the world can do to fix me and see what God has in mind.
In other, less depressing news, I have some cool news. I'm not going to tell you until the beginning of April. Mu-wahaha! When I tell you, you'll see why I'm waiting. ;-) Unless circumstances change, it will be April. It could be sooner, but it won't be later than the beginning of April. Wow. How many times can I write April in a paragraph? April.
While I am cooking up some blog posts, check out these great links (hover over each link for a brief description):
If It Were My Home
God working through an iPhone while you're at it Carlos Whittaker: Ragamuffin Soul
tylerstanton.com and trippcrosby.com - because THEY'RE hilarious
Don't forget to check out the links on the right!
Monday, January 10, 2011
Not a coincidence
This weekend, I had the great opportunity to attend a short conference/retreat. The sole focus was prayer. There weren't many people there, and that was the intention. My hope is that those who did attend will take back what they learned to their campuses. I do wish, however, that there was a bigger representation of Georgia BCMs.
Sunday, January 2, 2011
ABCDEFGH- INFP
What am I talking about? Well, the Myers-Briggs Test, of course. You take a test. If you're honest with yourself and don't try to cheat the test, you get four letters assigned to you. Not just any four letters, mind you. You get one from each E/I, S/N, T/F, and J/P. Each letter holds its own meaning, and when you group them together, you get a whole range of possibilities.
There are tons of tests with tons of outcomes ranging from assigned letters, colors, and even animals. While they are all limited, personality tests as a whole show the limitless nature of God. It's beautiful and at the same time sad. It's sad because people trying to typecast other people is the same way we try to typecast God.
Though we are finite and He is not, we are images of God. We are but shadows, but we have far more to us than the boxes people put us in. I'm not giving people the credit for our minds, creativity, and the like. That's all God. I wonder if we stop trying to stamp others with a four letter zip code and open our minds to the ranges and scales within those letters (or colors, etc) then maybe we'll begin to see a little of the wonder that is God.
I like the Myers-Briggs test. I am quite fond of it, actually. I like my four letters. I used to feel restricted or limited because of them. If you take a full-blown MB test, you'll realize that it is quite extensive. It's still limited, but it allows for the range of a person's personality to shine.
Very rarely does someone's personality actually change. People rarely go from being truly introverted to extroverted or vice versa. It usually takes a tragedy or being involved in some truly life altering event to change a personality. (I know that God can change a person, but I'll get to that.)
I think that if you're introverted; you're introverted. There's nothing to be ashamed of or angry at. It doesn't mean that you're shy (though introverts are the shy ones if there are shy folk around). It doesn't mean that you hate being around people. It doesn't mean that you freak out when public speaking. It means that you get your energy from being alone. I'm an introvert. I love people. I love being around people and speaking to and in front of people. However, too many people for too long makes me tired. I need alone time every now and again to regroup.
God wires us all differently and for His purpose. He gives us strengths and weaknesses. Before I was saved, I believe that the core of my personality was the same as it now. There are things that were changed within me like how I react to people or situations. I'm still a big daydreamer, but the things I dream about are (mostly) different. Before God saved me, I dreamed of all the wonderful places I could go. I still do that, but I usually have an underlying desire to teach people about Him.
I'm still introverted, but I am not as selfish with my time as I once was. Sure, it makes me tired, but I know that Jesus is my resting place.
You may disagree with me, and that is perfectly fine. I do hope we all agree that people cannot strictly be defined by one set of letters, colors, or animals. Like the vast nebulas in the reaches of the universe, so are the possibilities of personalities God creates for His good use.
2010 in review
The stats helper monkeys at WordPress.com mulled over how this blog did in 2010, and here's a high level summary of its overall blog health:
The Blog-Health-o-Meter™ reads Fresher than ever.
Crunchy numbers
The Leaning Tower of Pisa has 296 steps to reach the top. This blog was viewed about 1,100 times in 2010. If those were steps, it would have climbed the Leaning Tower of Pisa 4 times
In 2010, there were 50 new posts, growing the total archive of this blog to 118 posts. There were 58 pictures uploaded, taking up a total of 12mb. That's about 1 pictures per week.
The busiest day of the year was May 19th with 44 views. The most popular post that day was Hard.
Where did they come from?
The top referring sites in 2010 were facebook.com, stuffchristianslike.net, iamthisday.blogspot.com, digg.com, and thomasnelson.com.
Some visitors came searching, mostly for purple bath robe, ignoring intuition, jennifer chapman blog, dresden bombing before and after, and dresden 1945.
Attractions in 2010
These are the posts and pages that got the most views in 2010.
Hard May 2010
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An Introspective Look April 2010
Bonhoeffer: A Review November 2010
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30 before 30 December 2010
Things I Learned from the Braves October 2010
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
What Working for a Divorce Attorney has Taught Me
(Before I start, I was going to write a post last week. I never got around to it because work has been pretty heavy lately. I asked friends and family to describe me in one word, and I was going to turn that into a post that was based on a writing prompt. Let me say that what I got deeply touched me. So, thank you all for your kind honesty. I don't deserve you, but I am truly BLESSED and LOVED in every sense of those words. Please know that God used you for something special.)
To be fair, my boss practices mainly domestic law. In addition to divorces, he does custody and child support cases, too. Throw in the occasional adoption, name change, and will and you've got yourself a fairly accurate description of what I do.
I enjoy the work I do as far as writing legal pleadings, learning about domestic law (I've gotten myself pretty well versed in Child Support Guidelines), and meeting a lot of new and interesting people. With that, though, comes a pretty heavy burden. Most of the people I meet are going through the worst times of their lives. Some are pleasant and others are just plain mean.
So, here are the things I've learned:
- I hate divorce more than I ever have. HATE. (Please don't get me wrong, I don't hate the people who get divorced.)
- People are rotten and will use their children to get money or to hurt the other person.
- People are more fragile than I ever imagined.
- Marriage is more fragile than I ever imagined.
- It takes a lot less to upset me than it used to.
- I've realized that, more than ever, I want to fight for marriages and families to stay together.
Despite all the negative things this job has taught me, God has been pressing me at the same time.
- Marriage is fragile, but it's worth the fight.
- People are indeed broken, but they need love, tenderness, and compassion even if they treat me like crap.
- They way people treat me (and sometimes the way I react) is how we treat God. I am thankful that He doesn't react the way I do sometimes when people yell at me.
- All the He is runs deeper than I ever realized. He reminds me of this everyday when I've had a rough day and He dazzles me with a brilliant sunset.
- He will never disappoint me.
- Though this job makes me feel alone sometimes, He remi
nds that I am not by showing Himself through the generous love of my amazing family and beautiful friends.
- This job makes me want to get outside of myself and live for Him alone.
I leave you with this:
So if there is any encouragement in Christ, any comfort from love, any participation in the Spirit, any affection and sympathy, complete my joy by being of the same mind, having the same love, being in full accord and of one mind. Do nothing from rivalry or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves. Let each of you look not only to his own interests, but also to the interests of others. Have this mind among yourselves, which is yours in Christ Jesus, who, though he was in the form of God, did not count equality with God a thing to be grasped, but made himself nothing, taking the form of a servant, being born in the likeness of men. And being found in human form, he humbled himself by becoming obedient to the point of death, even death on a cross. Therefore God has highly exalted him and bestowed on him the name that is above every name, so that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.
Therefore, my beloved, as you have always obeyed, so now, not only as in my presence but much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling, for it is God who works in you, both to will and to work for his good pleasure.
Do all things without grumbling or questioning, that you may be blameless and innocent, children of God without blemish in the midst of a crooked and twisted generation, among whom you shine as lights in the world, holding fast to the word of life, so that in the day of Christ I may be proud that I did not run in vain or labor in vain. Even if I am to be poured out as a drink offering upon the sacrificial offering of your faith, I am glad and rejoice with you all. Likewise you also should be glad and rejoice with me. Philippians 2:1-18 (ESV)
Saturday, December 18, 2010
She asked us to pick 5 words to describe ourselves. Then, we were to choose one and write a poem.
Well, I can tell you that you don't want to read any attempt at a poem that comes from me. After nearly a week of trying to pound out a post, here I am.
Instead of picking the words myself, I asked friends and family to do my dirty work. I don't know what I was expecting. I think I was going to choose my favorite and write another post based on a single word. After I thought about it, I realized that the last time I did that, things got kind of dark and depressing.
I tried to bring in hope, but I'm not sure if it worked.
30 before 30
That gives me four years.
What about you? 20 before 20? 25 before 25? 50 before 50?
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Here's to 26 (and a lot) more!
Being 26 is weird. I am closer to 30 than I am 20. In all actuality, I have already lived for 26 years. I am working on number 27. Yay. I am thankful for another year-- for another day, even. I'm not going to reminisce or anything like that. You can read my blog. You're welcome.
Today, I want to talk about long and short-term goals I have.
In no particular order:
- Finish my degree. I never thought I'd be where I am today-- 26 and no degree. I have a lot of credits and nothing to show for it. I've not really enjoyed the schooling part of college so far, so I hope to find what I love and go for it. My inspirations for finishing my degree despite my "advanced" age are my parents, Aunt Susan, cousin Cindy, Laura Smith (Day's mom), and the husband and kids I may have one day.
- Get out of debt. I'll need a lot of help and support for this one. A sub-goal for this one is to no longer feel worthless for having the debt. I've made mistakes, and I've learned from them. I am still learning and unlearning habits, and I really want to feel like someone could love me despite the fact that I was an idiot when I was younger.
- Lose weight. I know that a lot of people have this goal, and it's nothing special. I figured that I need to make it public that I've always struggled with how I look. I've always thought I was fat even though I really wasn't in high school. Hindsight. My parents got me a Wii and Wii Fit for my birthday/ Christmas, and we're going to have some fun while doing exercise.
- Complete a triathlon. Say what? Yeah. I've never done anything like that before, and a friend from church wants to do. We'll see how this goes. (Number 3 and 4 are directly related.)
- Get this blog revamped and reorganized. I want to refocus the content and have more consistency. I love to write, and I can write best about what I know. That's me. I know that sounds incredibly selfish, but just wait for it. I want to be more open, honest, funny, and just plain real than ever before. I want to tackle issues like being single longer than I realized I wanted to be, having doubt, lack of motivation, how we get ourselves into trouble, etc. It will take a bit to re-work, but I think you'll like it. I'll only write about things I know or have researched. I don't like the uncertainty of posting something with the fear that I may have said something that was wrong. I'm not saying everything I write will be perfect. It will at least be well thought out and as true as I can tell it.
- Finish reading the Bible cover to cover. The prophets are daunting to me. I don't know why. I've read through Leviticus, so why not the prophets...?
- Learn sign language. This has always been a passion of mine. By always, I mean always. I can't remember a time when I've not thought about wanting to learn sign language. Along with schools of technology, I considered going to a university in DC that is for the deaf and HOH (and hearing folk, too). I wanted to be a psychologist that was able to take deaf and HOH clients. (Ask my mom for a funny story relating to sign language.)
I hope that in pushing toward these goals, I press into God to find the motivations that are pure. I've gone in circles long enough, and I want to be a better witness for God than what I am. I'm tired of doing nothing for the Kingdom.
Are you with me?
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Inspiration
In order:
- God
- Life
I know that God is life. I write because of God. He gives me the joy and the inspiration to write. I wish I could do it better. I write about life-- my life, mostly. It's what I know, and I hope that it inspires people. One day, I will reorganize my blog. God and Life will be the only two parent categories, and there will be sub-categories and tags and not half a dozen or so parent categories.
Though my inspirations are God and life, I write for you. One day, this blog will be better. It will serve you more.
So, for now, there's a slight disorganization, but I hope it serves as inspiration for you.

Monday, November 29, 2010
Why I'm a Georgia Tech fan
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Some people think I am a Tech fan because my dad is a Georgia fan. In my family, with a lot of a my friends, and at church, it would a heck of a lot easier to be a die-hard Georgia fan.
Some people would call me a fake Tech fan. Why? I don't absolutely despise Georgia... unless they're playing Tech. I enjoy SEC football a little more than some ACC match-ups. Don't get me wrong; there are some ACC match-ups that do rival SEC. I'm also not saying that SEC is the end-all of college football. Have you seen the way the SEC East is playing this year?
Anyhoo. Back to the point of the post.
I am a Tech fan because Georgia Tech was in the running for colleges when I was a junior and senior in high school. I wanted to be an engineer. That's right, folks. I love math and mathy sciences like Physics. As dorky as it seems, they excite and fascinate me, and I hate that I didn't push harder when I was a senior when they refused to put me in AP Calculus. (As it turns out, I took two other awesome math classes my senior year. See, nerd.) Another top contender was the Coast Guard Academy.
You people don't really know or understand how much I hated my English classes in high school. There was one I loved-- 11th grade Mr. DeLeslie. He taught on another level. There are two or three people from high school you can ask whom can vouch for the day I said, "I will never NEVER be an English major in college. Never. Ever." That was uttered around AP English test time. I still shudder... ew.
So there you have it. I am a math nerd stuck in an English major's body. Don't get me wrong, though. I love writing, editing, grammar, and I laugh at lit jokes that only English (and English Ed) majors get. I liken grammar to word math. I like formulas which is funny because my life looks nothing like I worked it out to be.
Maybe that's why things are so crazy in my life-- or in yours (not because of me, but because of...) pushing against what you're made to do so you can do something that everyone else thinks is best. I gave into a weird kind of pressure when I became an English major. I did it because it was what I thought people would think would be best for me-- a general degree. When I went specific when I was a psych major, I freaked out because I thought there'd be nothing for me.
Even though I've only officially changed my major once, there was a running joke for some reason with some people in my family that I can't decide on a major so I change it all the time. While it is true that I can't seem to land on one thing, something else is becoming more and more clear. It's a verse that is used a lot and misused as a result:
Delight yourself in the LORD,
and he will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4
For years, I was delighting myself in myself and in what others thought. I know that playing the what-if game is dangerous. I know that what-if's are stupid because if it was supposed to happen, it would have happened, but humor me. What-if, instead of pushing hard against math and science, I went to Georgia Tech or Southern Poly? What-if I became an engineer (probably civil or mechanical or something where I could take things apart to figure out how they work) and was *gasp* happy? Joyful, even? What-if I realized that I could reach a ton of people with this joy and started building things for people who didn't have anyone to build for them?
I'm no idiot. I realize that joy does not come from circumstances; it comes from the Lord. But what if math and science are those desires answered? Or something technically minded. Some subject I can study that has a rhythm and a pattern or that requires me to use a part of my brain that isn't all Englishy.
What if I hadn't delighted in myself? What if I had delighted in Him?
What if?
Delight yourself in the LORD,
and he will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4
No regrets.
There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. Romans 8:1
That, my friends, is why I am a Tech fan.
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
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Monday, October 11, 2010
Things I Learned from the Braves
It is no secret how big of a fan I am of the Braves. Though they sometimes frustrate me, I will never not be a fan. Despite losses that break the hearts of every person in Braves Country, I know that it is a game and that there is always next year. I think I want them to win big this year for several reasons. It's Bobby's last year. We've come from behind to clinch it so many times. We've suffered a lot of injuries of key players late in the season, and we still somehow manage to fight back.
As I was watching Game 3 go down the toilet, I felt the need to get angry at that one player who seemed to forget the fundamentals of baseball. It was so easy to get caught up in the moment and groan as the ball dropped or went through his legs.
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I came home frustrated, and then I read something on Twitter that broke my heart. It broke my heart because it reminded me that we're all human. It is the unfortunate human condition to make mistakes and to put the blame on the person making them. Here's what I read from pitcher Tim Hudson:
We love him [Conrad] more now than ever.
That one little line forced me to look back on those plays and see the anguish in Brooks Conrad's eyes. Despite Braves fans screaming and booing at him, THE Braves didn't give up on him. They encouraged him, and Conrad is quoted as saying that he isn't going to ask for a day off. (He's also quoted as saying that he wanted to dig a hole somewhere and sleep in it. Poor thing.) We'll find out sometime today whether he's in the lineup. I hope he is. (More on that in a second.)
You see, what happened to Brooks Conrad last night happens to everyone. More than most people have the fortune of not having it on national television. They don't have hundreds and thousands of people replaying those moments on Instant Replay or booing them because of a mistake. One small mess-up can turn into a chain of events that makes you feel like you've screwed up your life and the lives of others around you.
Though some of the fans are mad, the team isn't mad. They recognize at some point and time every player has a slump. We go from celebrating a walk-off grand slam to bashing that same person for dropping a ball. Yes, it was at a critical time, but haven't you messed up at a critical time?
Even though God's love never changes because it is infinite, I liken the way The Braves players reacted to Brooks to the way God reacts when we screw up. I know it's nowhere near a perfect analogy, but God doesn't throw his children to the wayside when we mess up. He lovingly shows us where we've gone astray and in His infinite grace and mercy He stretches us and molds us to become more like His Son.
Why do I hope to see Conrad in the lineup tonight? It's a second chance. He might mess up again tonight or he might hit that walk off grand slam. Either way, he's like us. We, as Christians, live a life of second chances. Don't let anger get the best of you. Don't rely on a person or a team for your happiness because they will surely let you down. Rely on God for everything and suddenly the Post Season (or whatever else) becomes a time of fellowship and fun.
So, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God. 1 Corinthians 10:31
Thursday, July 8, 2010
The List (edited)
I ran across this great site via another great site via yet another great site. It was ex-site-ing. HAHAHAAA!! Ahem. Sorry.
It all started with Stuff Christians Like. That led to Single and Sane. Then, that led to Mama Kat.
The link to Single and Sane is the inspiration for this post. Mama Kat has a page of writing prompts that I wish I found when I was trying to do the post a day in May (major fail). That's beside the point. Mama Kat challenged her readers to make a list of 50 things they look for in a man. Just read the Single and Sane article for her reaction. It was a little like mine, so I'm going to shorten it, too.
I don't know of anyone who has ever called me picky. I do know that a lot of people have told me that I have to wait until I get my doctorate to get married. If I went by that, it could end up that I won't ever get married. Am I stalling?
There aren't 50. Well, I don't know. There may be, but I doubt it. These aren't nit-picky things like must have chestnut-brown hair with eyes as green as a crayon and a laugh that sounds like thunder. If you would have asked me this question when I was in high school, I probably would have given you a ridiculous list like that.
Finally:
OK, not really finally. A small explanation. There are some things I will not budge on:
- He must be a Christian. Not just by name and not just by acts. A real man with a real passion for Jesus and the things that Jesus had a passion for.
- We must share the same call. There's nothing worse than one spouse feeling led to overseas missions and the other who doesn't want to. We're called to make disciples, and we (my, uhm, potential man and I) have to be called to do it in the same place.
- He must be an ever-growing man of God. His passion to know God more and more each day must outweigh His passion for me or anything else in this life.
- He must not be afraid to be the spiritual leader. This comes with 1-3, I believe.
- He must not be afraid to defend the Gospel. No matter the cost.
- In relation to the first one, his heart must be for those who society has deemed an outcast or unwanted.
- He needs a sense of humor and can appreciate mine. (I don't know if I should move this to the second list. It sometimes seems petty to me and others it seems immovable. What do you think?)
Then, there are some that I can wiggle on and have changed over the years and will probably change over more years.
- He isn't overly obsessed with video games or with sports. I do enjoy video games and sports but not so much that I sweat Mario or bleed a school's colors. Playing a sport is different. That is perfectly fine. Honestly, I say this because I can become overly passionate about a team (The Braves or Falcons) and neglect some things that actually matter in life. I need a man who can recognize that in me and help me not drown in a sea of tomahawks and feathers.
- He needs to accept the fact that I like cats. He doesn't have to love my cat or even like her because I can almost guarantee you that she won't like him. Kicking is not permitted. He just needs to dwell in the same space as her without getting all weird.
- He has a strong grasp of what good grammar is. (I understand that no one is perfect. I am not perfect when it comes to grammar as I sometimes don't care about preposition syntax. I tend to write in the passive voice and use clichés from time to time. Though, I do care for superfluous prepositions. They're like nails on a chalk board.)
- He needs to have an itch for travel. Overall, I am really a homebody, but there are times when the world is calling my name.
Hm. No where near 50. I don't think I could make it to 50 if I tried.
Love,
Jennifer
Sunday, June 13, 2010
May 22-31
To you, Reader, I am sorry that I didn't follow through. Life (especially school) got in the way.
I am hoping to post a few times a month, though.
As always, I am open for suggestions.
Much love,
Jennifer